Guess what? I'm back!! I know I've been gone for a while and this post somewhat explained why. Sorry for this word heavy post but I'd really love to share what's been going on in my life!
After searching tirelessly for a job (and not just any job, a job that I would actually enjoy waking up to go to) I had a job kind of fall in my lap. A staffing company that I had been working with called me and said they had a temporary position at a church and that they were in charge of the hiring process and I could start tomorrow. I was pretty overwhelmed having not met anybody at this church, never seeing the church and not knowing a thing about them besides what their website said but I said yes anyway. It was good hours, 9-3:30, and decent pay so I figured, why not? It's temporary so if I hate it, it's no big deal. After having been here only 7 days, I can say that I truly enjoy it and that it is totally a God thing that I ended up here. The staff is extremely nice, the workflow is good so I don't get bored, I can wear casual clothes (ie. not business attire, yay!) and they are very flexible as to what I do with the projects they give me. It is completely different than when I was working for the law firm and everything I turned into them had 1,000 corrections on it. When the church asks me to make something, they let me run with it, I do it and they love it. It's a good feeling when someone says "wow, this looks awesome, great job!" I'm also surrounded by loving people who genuinely care about me as a person which is a great feeling. The only downside I can think of is that I don't get baby snuggles at this job (I truly miss my little baby girl I nannied!).
I'm also newly single...I don't think it's really hit me yet though. We've both been pretty unhappy so it was somewhat mutual. I don't necessarily know if it's going to be a "we are never ever getting back together" type situation, but it is definitely a much needed time for me to focus on myself and solidify who I am and who I want to be.
And this is where I get pretty real and open with you guys. I've been dealing with some anxiety/depression issues for a few months and I finally decided to do something about it and get help. I'm currently on a low dosage medication to ease the anxiety and I'm searching for a sort of life counselor to help me along in this confusing time in my life.
I also think that is why I say it's a God thing that I ended up working at a church because it has reignited my desire/need to be involved in a church. I grew up going to church 2-3 times a week and once I started college (at a private Christian university) I fell away from my faith somewhat and rarely attended church. I know, kind of the opposite affect you would think a private Christian university would have, ha. Since graduating and moving around, I've lost close friends and haven't found a church to connect with. I've signed up for an 8-week women's bible study to hopefully meet some new friends and be able to connect with a local church.
These are all exciting yet scary changes that are happening in my life and I'm looking forward to see where God takes me with this journey called life!
I promise I'll be blogging more often and that I'll have some more fun/light hearted things to read about. =)