After searching tirelessly for a job (and not just any job, a job that I would actually enjoy waking up to go to) I had a job kind of fall in my lap. A staffing company that I had been working with called me and said they had a temporary position at a church and that they were in charge of the hiring process and I could start tomorrow. I was pretty overwhelmed having not met anybody at this church, never seeing the church and not knowing a thing about them besides what their website said but I said yes anyway. It was good hours, 9-3:30, and decent pay so I figured, why not? It's temporary so if I hate it, it's no big deal. After having been here only 7 days, I can say that I truly enjoy it and that it is totally a God thing that I ended up here. The staff is extremely nice, the workflow is good so I don't get bored, I can wear casual clothes (ie. not business attire, yay!) and they are very flexible as to what I do with the projects they give me. It is completely different than when I was working for the law firm and everything I turned into them had 1,000 corrections on it. When the church asks me to make something, they let me run with it, I do it and they love it. It's a good feeling when someone says "wow, this looks awesome, great job!" I'm also surrounded by loving people who genuinely care about me as a person which is a great feeling. The only downside I can think of is that I don't get baby snuggles at this job (I truly miss my little baby girl I nannied!).
I'm also newly single...I don't think it's really hit me yet though. We've both been pretty unhappy so it was somewhat mutual. I don't necessarily know if it's going to be a "we are never ever getting back together" type situation, but it is definitely a much needed time for me to focus on myself and solidify who I am and who I want to be.
And this is where I get pretty real and open with you guys. I've been dealing with some anxiety/depression issues for a few months and I finally decided to do something about it and get help. I'm currently on a low dosage medication to ease the anxiety and I'm searching for a sort of life counselor to help me along in this confusing time in my life.
I also think that is why I say it's a God thing that I ended up working at a church because it has reignited my desire/need to be involved in a church. I grew up going to church 2-3 times a week and once I started college (at a private Christian university) I fell away from my faith somewhat and rarely attended church. I know, kind of the opposite affect you would think a private Christian university would have, ha. Since graduating and moving around, I've lost close friends and haven't found a church to connect with. I've signed up for an 8-week women's bible study to hopefully meet some new friends and be able to connect with a local church.
These are all exciting yet scary changes that are happening in my life and I'm looking forward to see where God takes me with this journey called life!
I promise I'll be blogging more often and that I'll have some more fun/light hearted things to read about. =)
Congratulations on finding a job you enjoy so much! Breakups are never fun, or easy. But the chance to focus on yourself is always nice. :)
ReplyDeleteSo many changes! So excited to hear that you got an awesome job, it makes a world of difference!!! I'm sorry to her about you and the bf. No matter how amicable it is, it's still hard to break it off with someone. Also I feel ya on the anxiety thing. When I was getting in mega fights with the in-laws it was affecting me major and I felt weird having to take some medication for it. No shame though! If it helps me get back on track, then I'm all for it! You are so brave for writing this post and opening up.
ReplyDeleteBtw, I'm moving down to So-Cal in about a month. sooooo be preapared :D
Wow, congrats on finding a job! I know breakup are hard, no matter if they are mutual or not. I'm with you on the anxiety thing: it SUCKS. We're here for you babe! Thanks for being so open with us!
ReplyDeletei'm so happy for you, courtney! it's so nice to actually feel appreciated at a job and i'm sure it will help you mentally as well. i struggle with anxiety/depression issues as well, so if you ever need to chat, hit me up!
ReplyDeletemaybe blogging about your anxieties and fears more often could help also.
good luck with everything (:
Lots of changes happening in your life. I'm proud of you for realizing you needed to make some changes. And you did. The realization that you need anxiety meds is not an easy one. But it's do rewarding to know you can take the edge off with the right medication. It's made a world of difference for me. You seem to be handling the breakup well. If you're meant to be together then you will. Someday. Just not now. Good for you for handling it do well.
ReplyDeleteSO much going on girl!!! So glad you found something you like and have been enjoying it :) it makes such a difference in life to go somewhere everyday where you feel appreciated and wanted, and most importantly cared for.
ReplyDeleteI bet you are missing the little girl you nannied for, she was a cutey!!!
I am SO sorry to hear about you and your bf. So sad :( But sometimes for the best. Or even just the best right now :( doesn't make it easier AT ALL, but time will heal and being busy will help for sure. If he's not it, that just means there is something even greater out there for you. You deserve nothing but the best!!!!
Anxiety/depression...girl I deal with that too. I take a low does of a little something as well, and it does help take the edge off :) I think there is just something about our 20's. So much change, so much going on, still figuring out who we are, who are supposed to be, and where we are supposed to be it.
I feel good things are coming your way! The bible study sounds like a great way to connect and meet some new people too!
Seriously, we should exchange numbers, text/call eachother when we need someone to talk to about something. I am here and always a phone call or email away if you ever want to chat about anything!!! XOXO!
Oh my gosh Court...I'm so sorry that I'm just now reading this post. I think it's great that you found a new job that you enjoy! That is so important. I know you miss that cute baby girl, but this has a lot of opportunities as well! What church is it??
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear about the break up, but the attitude you have is great. I'm hoping that God brings you peace about it and that He also showers you with strength and comfort, because I know how hard it can get at times. If you ever need to chat, let me know! I'm here for you girl!!
wow! So much has been going on in your life! Can't wait to hear what all of these changes end up bringing your way. :) Change can be sooo hard.
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